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I really need to blog more. I have interesting stories.

I had a speech today in Oral Communications.

I can’t believe how much I need to restrain my body from shaking. My name is called, the title of my speech is read aloud. I start to pass out my visual to the class, the sign language alphabet so they can understand what it looks like. The papers start shaking and all I can think of is, Shit. Is this really going to happen now? It’s starting and I don’t think it’s going to stop. FUCK. I have to pee. I stand behind the podium and grasp the desk with both hands to make the shaking go away just enough so that way nobody can tell. I start talking and I stutter a bit with ums and uhs. It gets better throughout the rest of the speech. The class asks questions and its over. My teacher tells me that I needed to use my hands more. GREAT. I get back to my seat and I realize I still really need to pee. I walk out and I can’t find the bathroom. I walk back, wait for class to be over and go back to my room. I forget to pee and fall asleep.

I didn’t pee until 3pm. Speech was at 8am. I experienced about the longest bathroom session of my life. I never want to forget to use the bathroom ever again! Gaaaah.